Restlessness is a four letter word.

Is it sad that my version of a good time on a Friday night is seeing a visiting London troupe perform King Lear? …Yes, I know it is, but part of me doesn’t really care. (Btw, it was really freaking good.)

Also, is it sad that I’ve been watching a lot of movies since I’ve gotten here? (Good moves at least: American Beauty, The Truman Show, Ghost World, American Splendor, Rent, 500 Days of Summer.) The more expected version of college fun is getting wasted, but…I guess at the heart of it, I’m not the kind of person to go searching for a place to do so. I’m not even morally against drinking a little, but. I’m not the kind of person to go out and do things just because I can now…perhaps I have too much common sense to get wasted, because I know that hangovers = anti-fun, and that I wouldn’t want to lose control of my good judgment. At this point I would feel safe drinking a little if some of the girls from my dorm were around, because I trust them and some of them have experience with this kind of thing. But it’s not something that I’m going to consciously seek.

Maybe I’m just the kind of person who doesn’t feel like she has a hole needing to be filled. In a similar vein, some of the girls here are rather boy-crazy and trying to find a male counterpart as soon as possible. I’m not going to pretend like I’m completely above that; I’m almost convinced that being in an all-female environment actually messes with our hormones. For instance, I’ve never been one to swoon over male celebrities, but I’ve definitely been noticing their appearances recently. In spite of this, I feel detached from the overall “must find a male” vibe. I realize that this is probably because I have a mate at home (actually, a lot of girls are in long distance relationships, which is pretty cool), but even if I didn’t, I don’t think I would be consciously searching. But, I guess this is in line with my past – I’ve always seemed to unconsciously fall into the relationships I’ve had. Which is probably the way to go anyway – more natural, if you will.

Anyway, one thing I am super stoked on: I started interning at WZLY (Wellesley’s very own radio station) on Saturday! The atmosphere of the radio station is super chill, and I can definitely see myself spending a lot of time there. There are so many CDs lining the walls of the lounge outside the studios…it’s literally an “Esther Heaven”. It brings a tear of happiness to my eye. …etc.

Also, as a final note, I am so sick of Shakespearean sonnets. I love the man’s plays…but his sonnets are so obsessively pathetic. Or…perhaps I mean pathetically obsessive. Yeah, that one. I’m so glad that my English class is moving on next week. But then we’re going to read John Donne, who I hear is pretty hefty as well. Oh well.