I feel like I should be blogging…
Tomorrow is my last day of work.
Next week is my last week before I drive out of Ventura.
The week after is the first time I will be living “on my own” (without my parents).
And the week after that is the first week of college classes.
Yes, it seems like this stage of our lives is full of ends and beginnings.
I’m not really sure what I wanted out of my last summer before college. And because of that, I’m not sure if I have achieved it. I’m extremely grateful that I had a job, even if it is the main reason why I didn’t hang out with people nearly as much as I had hoped to.
Everyone changes in college. But I’ve been having this feeling…that I’ve changed even in this summer. I’m not completely different, but there are little things. I don’t know, maybe my subconscious is playing tricks on me, and I’m unintentionally lying. I know for a fact that I have changed over the last year…and it leads to the question of who I will be in a year. Different, yet the same. The same picture, but in color instead of black and white. More contrast. A change in lighting.
This whole summer has been one of unrelenting anticipation and speculation. My future to me now is unreal, because I have yet to experience it. And to think that in a year some of my current future will be my past… aha, it’s ridiculous.
