Secrets.
Most people have them, even if they don’t realize it. Most of the time when I think of secrets, I think of dark, deep, daring secrets that would require high contrast lighting if life was a film. Not that I have that many.
When I think about it, I’m not sure that I have very many secrets at all. Not total secrets, anyway. Even the worst ones, at least one person knows about. I remember a specific instance in a hotel room where I told Darianne my biggest secret, one that I had held for almost half my life. But at that moment, it didn’t even seem that significant. People try to cover the past, but the past is what has shaped them. You can’t cover the effects.
But. Today I created a small, hilarious secret. It’s not that I don’t want to tell people, it’s just that… they don’t want to know. (It’s at this point where the reader should insert a typical Esther laugh. Too bad that it’s impossible to put into letters.) The only person I can see myself telling this to is Darianne, and if/when I do, we’re probably going to laugh hysterically, like we always do when we’re around each other. (Eff, I miss that girl.)
Now, the reader might be saying, “What the eff is the point of this post? (To make me feel left out?)” Not at all! I’m telling you to go create a small secret, a little inside joke, for yourself. One that’s harmless and will make you laugh. Sure, you can tell someone afterwards, if you really really want to. But appriciate the secret for whatever time that you decide to keep it.
I don’t know, it’s not very typical of me to write positive posts (or blog at all…) And honestly, that’s because usually I’m more angsty than Michael when I blog. That’s why I tend to avoid it. Who needs to hear me whine about a life that’s firmly non-tragic? Today I was vaguely moody for a bit, but after “cleaning” my room, I decided to do something silly, impractical. And I feel better. Dearies, it’s quite easy for us to get all up in our teen angst, but eff that. Go live life.
(Hmmm. Maybe I’ve been reading too many Gala Darling blogs.)
