Losing Touch.
It’s very easy for me to lose touch. With both people and reality in general.
I don’t know, it’s strange when I think about it. Over time, I’ve become increasingly more social, and now I’m at the point where I can become obnoxiously loud in the blink of a eyelash, for better or worse. (I’m kind of scared as to which it is.) Granted, it’s good that I’m not super emo like I pseudo was when I was younger. Everything has its pros and cons. But I strongly digress.
You would think that now that I love people, I would make sure to talk to them all the time, right? Especially the ones I don’t see as often, right? Because I miss them, right? And yet I’ve always had this issue of losing connections with people. And I’m not really sure why. I’m too ADD to focus on things that are not immediate? I’m not secure enough to hold a conversation with a friend from middle school, because we might not have anything to talk about? There are other options I’ve thought about, but I won’t draw them all out. I really don’t know.
And I’m scared as to what this means for the present and the future. As for the present, I’m not going to lie: I only wanted to take Wind Ensemble because I wanted to see my Buena friends. (Ok, fine, there were other reasons…so that was a lie. Wow, sometimes I even confuse myself! Well, it was definitely a factor.) Yet, that kept me from my Foothill friends! Oh, the conflicts! Woe is my life, the angst! So here I am, with no Wind Ensemble and no Buena friends. Bear in mind that two of my closest friends go to Buena.
The obvious objection to all this occurs: well, then why don’t you just call them and hang out? Come on, haven’t we already had this discussion? With school currently ruling our lives, one of the parties, whether it be me or them, is not available.
And so, the future. It is creeping up on us ever so slightly, I’m sure you’ve realized. Soon, we will probably all be off, away from home (thank God) but also away from the relationships we have already established. Off to forge new ones! Exciting. Terrifying.
I don’t want to let myself lose my friends. It would be very easy for me to do.
Michael Cera fandom strikes again.
So, I definitely never gave that new Nick and Norah Infinite Playlist movie a second glace because:
1. It’s based off of a youth fiction book, which mostly suck.
2. This is mind, most movies are far worse than the books.
I was almost tempted to read the book, due to heavy music interest, but the story line didn’t grab me, and I decided I had better things to do with my time.
But: I just found out that Michael Cera is in the movie. And now I’m tempted to see it? I’ll probably decide not to, but the mere temptation makes me realize how pathetic I am. However, apparently the movie is going to have a reasonably good soundtrack. Opinions on this? Personally, track seven is the only one I know off hand, and I love it mucho.
Also, on a completely unrelated note, Fleet Foxes actually has a myspace?! GRR. Despite having serached them earlier, I could never find them because of they listed themselves as Fleet Foxxxxxes, which is obviously not what I searched. Whatever, at least I know now. This, of course, also brings up the issue that I should to go on, say, lastfm for music. As if I don’t already spend enough time on this subject!
Break ups are never fun.
Especially when they involve awesome bands. D=
I am experiencing major “bummer time”, especially since I never saw them live. But I will forever rock out to the two albums that they graced the world with.
Be Your Own Pet, you will be missed.
